Hopes for the future
Having hope helps push me through the worst of times.
I hope that I come out of this trauma stronger mentally. I'll be more courageous I'll be wiser. I don't have the energy to work out, but once I do I hope I come out physically stronger as well. I like to view pain as a sign of growth. With the amount I've felt recently I'll emerge from this a new man. I'm looking forward to that day.
I've stopped drinking. I'm out for my friends 30th so hopefully I can keep it up. If I get through this I'm pretty sure I can push through anything. Drink rarely makes anything better, but often makes things worse. I'm confident and happy enough without it. I don't need it anymore. During this period drink would just reduce my already deflated levels of energy and make me feel worse, so I'm avoiding it.
3. More in touch with emotions
I'm not really an emotional person. This might help me be more in touch with emotions and build stronger bonds with others. that or they'll just get angry when I explain how I got through this and so can they. who knows.
I'm getting older. I want kids and to settle down. That all starts with asking someone out and getting them to be my girlfriend. I'm hopeful that I'll manage at least this, this year.
I hope I'm able to make more book and clothing sales. I'm happy with my progress, but mores always better.
6. New Job
I need to find something that utilises more of my skills/knowlage. A big part of my stress came from working somewhere well below my skills/knowledge.
7. Stand Up
I've got a spot booked for the Edinburgh Fringe. I just hope I have the energy to perform. Either way I want to do more gigs this year.
8. New Book
I've finished the first draft. Hopefully I can rewrite it and have the finished book published later this year.
I'm about 70% happy. Which is still pretty good, but for someone that's usually in the high 90's range it's lower than I'd like to be. I hope I return to my normal baseline soon.