4 Non-Life-or-Death Things I Still Need to Do

I have been having an emotional-existential crisis/breakdown since December. That or autistic burnout. Or a mix of those things. It's kind of chicken-and-egg: who knows what's causing what at this point?

In the meantime, I've been doing the absolute bare minimum for survival. Here, for my own sake, are my list of non-essential-but-still-important tasks I have been putting off. If I write them down, maybe I'll stop forgetting them.

1. Finish the fellowship application.

I'm gonna try to do this right after I post this list. It's almost done and it's due tomorrow. It's a huge opportunity, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me because I actually feel I would be a good fit for this fellowship, and it's really rare for big opportunities to come up that I feel like I could actually pull off.

It is probably a good sign that I am terrified. Historically, the only things I have ever worked hard on have been things that made me feel like dying.

2. Mail out all sold items.

I promised an annoyed customer that I would mail their item out tomorrow morning. So I intend to pack the orders when I get home this evening. It's a miracle more customers have not been chasing me down with pitchforks by now given how many outstanding orders I have yet to send out.

I will remind myself that I did, in fact, get a decent amount of sleep last night. So I have no excuse to go straight to bed when I get home, as I am sometimes tempted to do.

3. Write back to Okinawan pen pal.

I am disgracing myself to the community of my people by not replying to this sweet girl's letter. I will do this on Saturday - or even tomorrow after work, if I have time.

4. Complete all the other applications I put on my calendar.

I am not doing much at work lately, because my boss mysteriously has the impression I have a lot on my plate right now. I can do those tomorrow.