Why I'm leaving Scotland

By winning I mean having a great job, wife and kids. If I had it all, would I be satisfied? I don't believe I would be.

What jobs could I do? I could easily be management in the Jobs i've done in the past, security, teaching and retail. I'd be making good money, yet (apart from teaching, to an extent. More on that later) the thought of continuing in those roles fills me with dread. I hated security. Long hours where nothing exciting happens. When something does happen it's 0 - 100, utter chaos. Folk wanting to fight you, spewing abuse, idiots. Sure management has it slightly better, but it's a no from me. Retail is boring. I don't like working hard, just to be back at square one the following day. There's no progress. It's like the tale of Sisyphus who pushed a rock up a hill every day only for it to roll back down at night. An eternal job. He found meaning in it, but I feel like a robot I really don't like it.

Teachings a different matter. I love teaching, but i couldn't teach here.

I tried to become a teacher here. The university tasked us with explaining why 'Inclusive learning' was a good thing. There is many good point's, but it's also flawed and I felt that was important to highlight. 'Celebrating Diversity' will lead to more diversity and less hard work/intelligence. Kids, like all of us want to be celebrated. The path of less friction is the one most people take. It doesn't take a genuis to see coming out as diverse is far easier than studying and working hard, hence it will be the one most people will take. Leading to a future of diverse but less intelligent/hard working adults.

I don't want to be part of that. For me this is the opposite of what a teacher should be aiming for.

I've been back for a while and I can't see myself settling down with anyone around here and I don't want to send my kids to schools that promote the nonsense i discussed before. I can't see any woman wanting me in my current state. Living with my parents and working at the lowest end of retail. And like i stated before a promotion just mean more of what I dislike. Maybe that would be worth it for the right lass, or maybe it would just result in resentment growing. No-one want's that.

My politics differ greatly from most people round here, so I'll just be watching slowly get worse and that's not what you want for a place you call home. I don't have high hopes for the country. I hope I'm wrong, but I don't think I am. Maybe I'll write a prediction list in the future.

I want an adventure. Life at the moment is far to repetitive. It's boring. I've did my best to bring a sense of adventure into my life with all my projects and they've really helped, but I feel it's time for something bigger.

I set up a facebook page a few years back to share advice, because i saw just how bad things were back here. The vast majority of people here suffer from some form of depression/anxiety. I've really tried to help. Despite all I've done the epidemic continues. I've lost too many friends due to it. I don't want to stick around and watch as even more give up and let it beat them. I can't help people that aren't willing to help themselves and I'm up against the world that's pushing nonsense like 'It's ok to be not ok', numbing drugs, 'talk to someone', etc. It looks like they want us depressed, because I don't see any real action in preventing it.

Then again I'm moving to Japan and I'm pretty sure as a whole they're doing worse. Maybe I can help them. Maybe a new perspective will lead me to new solutions.