10 Things I Don't Have That My Heart Yearns For (if only my brain would get out of the way)

1. To be an adventure photographer.

It would be an amazing life to be paid to travel to beautiful places and take beautiful photos.

But, I know zip about photography and my brain is telling me I would never be good at it.

2. To run away with the circus.

This is a boyhood dream that's never died. The 'real world' (i.e., what everyone else has expected of me) has always intervened.

I heard an interview last week on the RV Entrepreneur podcast (https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/rve-245-variety-acts-ways-to-take-your-show-on-the/id1085300491?i=1000556534675) with a circus performer, and his life sounded *amazing*. He even said his circus is hiring!

But, my brain is telling me that I have nothing to contribute in terms of a circus act.

3. To give more love to my parents.

I'm lucky. Both of my parents are in their 70's, and in generally good health. They both care about me. Yet, my brain is always telling me to keep a modest distance. Why? I don't know why.

This needs to change while we still have time.

4. For the girl sitting across from me at the coffee shop to look up at me and smile.

Yet she seems much more interested in her writing than me. Half of my brain is telling me to go talk to her, and the other half is cowering in the corner, not letting me go.

5. To never have to do anything I don't want to do.

When I think of this one, it mostly revolves around making money.

The sad truth is that most of us make money doing things we would never otherwise do and that the majority of our economy is built on bribing people to give up their time, energy, and attention to do things they generally dislike just to be able to eat and pay the rent.

And yet, I keep sabotaging all of my entrepreneurial pursuits that would provide income doing things I love. Why?

6. To be rid of my running injuries.

I'm not sure my brain is in the way on this one, as I'm doing everything under the sun short of surgery to heal. It's just taking forever and I yearn for the day to be healthy again.

7. To be an instant alchemist.

I want to be the guy who always has a great idea or solution at the drop of a hat in any situation.

Yet, my creative muscle is a bit slow. This is evident when creating these ideas lists (sometimes I agonize for a while before I come up with something halfway decent), but it also shows up in other areas of life.

Hopefully, that will change as I remain consistent in creating daily idea lists.

8. To be on the James Altucher Show.

It would be amazing to meet James! This is a pipe dream, and my brain is telling me I don't have enough value to provide the show to be on it. Maybe someday?

9. For the Chicago Bears to win a Super Bowl.

While I yearn for this one, it's never going to happen with this team. They're terrible, and yet my brain refuses to let me go be a fan of a better team.

10. To complete a 100-mile footrace.

I've been dreaming of this one for years, but every time I get close, and I've been close several times...BAM! I get injured. Every damn time. Maybe it's my brain's/body's way of sabotaging me, telling me I can't do it?

BillBergeman