Dilema

I need to pay £650 for a holiday.  I also need to pay for even more paperwork plus flight's for China.  On top of that Christmas is coming up and if I'm not in China that'll cost me a fair bit. It also means breaking a promise I made to myself and working another Christmas in retail.

I thought I'd be in China by now making good enough money to pay off my holiday no problem.  Unfortunately I'm still here.  So yeah, what do I do?

Pay it off? One less thing to stress about.  I'm in a worse stage for everything else, but at least it's done.

Focus on China.  It really shouldn't be much more, but I've been telling myself that for the last 6 month's.  Maybe I should just give up with it at this point.

Christmas.  Spend the majority on family so they can have a good Christmas.  They'll be happy enough anyway this is a decision over the first two options.

As far as I know canceling the holiday without paying it off isn't an option.  That might change thing's up if it is, but I'll be gutted to miss out.

You're all the smartest group of people I have on social media so any help would be appreciated.  

Thank you

Rocco