What I Don't Know

It's impossible to go through life without asking the question:

Am I here for a reason?

Does Life (with a capital L) have a purpose? And if not, do I as an individual have a purpose?

I don't know, and I never will.

That's okay. I'll try to enjoy myself regardless.

Even if you're not religious, a part of you must wonder if your life was a choice.

It's thought provoking, for sure.

What if this life is just a Simulation? What if I chose to be here? What if I intentionally chose to forget why?

Maybe the Big Bang was just a 13 billion-year billiard break, and I exist because the particles temporarily settled in this order I call "me."

Or maybe not. Maybe reality itself is just a game, and I'm choosing to play.

I'm not talking about government surveillance. I'm talking about beings that exist in a higher dimension.

Hold up! Before you scoff, recognize how INCREDIBLY LIMITED your senses are. Radio waves and wifi are flowing around you at all times, but do you feel them? No.

I can look at an ant on the sidewalk. The ant has no idea that I'm there. I can observe its every move, and even mess with him a little bit. I can block the sun so he's in the shade. I can drop some bread crumbs for him to find nearby.

I could even squish him and he would never see it coming.

Physics tells us there are many dimensions beyond what we perceive. If a life form exists in a higher dimension, it could hide from me as easily as I could hide from an ant. It may even mess with me a little bit. "Nudge" me in a particular direction.

It's not as far-fetched as it seems. And honestly, I don't know.

This seems obvious, but when people say they "knew" something was going to happen, it bothers me.

"I knew that team was going to lose! I knew it!"

Really? Did you put money on the game? If you knew it, it would've been easy money, right?

The future takes very weird turns. I have an idea of where things might go, but I really don't know.

This falls into law of attraction territory, but it's a question worth asking:

Does my inner state affect my outer world?

The phrase I like to use is "quantumsphere" or "quantum field." It's seems to blend science with woo-woo.

Scientists can't explain quantum reality. They can try, but ultimately it's like revealing a few pieces of a billion-piece jigsaw puzzle. It doesn't give you a sense of the whole picture.

I DO know that my inner state is the most important thing. I stretch, meditate, and exercise every day because it makes my inner world feel good. And when I do these things, it SEEMS to affect my outer world. They day just goes a little smoother. Sometimes, amazing opportunities arise seemingly out of nowhere.

Was it all random chance, or did my balanced inner being "attract" certain experiences from the quantum field?

I don't know.

Einstein once wrote:

"People like us who believe in physics know that the distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion."

If that's true, then free will itself is an illusion. The tracks have been set. It's like riding Pirates of the Caribbean at Disneyland.

This is the path you're going to take. These are the sights you'll see. You can't change it. So what can you do?

You can choose your inner state. Do you laugh? Are you frightened? Are you bored? Are you entertained?

Maybe our inner state is all we can choose. Or maybe that's an illusion too.

What I like about this app is that I'm not writing to a particular audience or for a particular agenda.

I'm not trying to gain followers or push my "brand".

I don't have a brand. I don't have a persona. I'm just thinking out loud.

That's why my lists are so all over the place. It depends how I feel that day. If I'm ambitious, I'll write a lot. If I'm in a weird mood, it'll be a weird list. And I like that whimsicality.

If you made it this far, thanks. I don't know you. But I am just a message away.

Feel free to say hi.